Living Inside My Head

What do you think is the real difference between fear and trauma? Do you think they're alike? Or they are just connected with each other? Different, but somehow connected. What do you think? According to my sister, Viary, fear is all in the brain while trauma is caused by an event/happening that causes fear. For short, trauma triggers fear. Every single night, my sister and I would tremble by the sound of "something" outside our room. We haven't noticed it until now. We were sent to a psychiatrist after a tragic incident, and that was when our father got murdered at our very own home. We thought that we got over it, but we thought wrong. Whenever we hear the loud patter of the rain on our roof, we get nervous because it reminds us of the time when there were people who kept throwing rocks on our rooftop while there were gunshots being fired. Tragic, isn't it? And that event still haunts us 'til now. I have consulted Merriam-Webster dictionary for its mea...

What will your reaction be if you see a man carrying an armalite around town? Call the police, obviously. Yesterday, April 30, 2014, my aunt caught an old woman running with her grand children and muttering something. Something about a man in black carrying a deadly weapon. Wanna know what she did? Nope, she didn't panic. She actually laughed. She laughed because they got it all wrong. The man carrying the weapon was actually our homeboy. He brought my cousin's airsoft gun home because our uncle borrowed it the day before that. There was a crowd outside full of police and the people in the neighborhood's faces were painted with panic. The witness' story went like this: "I saw a man in a black shirt carrying an armalite around. I followed him to the church and then he suddenly disappeared." We are living near the church and there's a shortcut to our house by the church and that explains the sudden disappearance. So all the hard work of th...

So while I was typing my blog today, my sister keeps on asking me about what we should do during the summer. She thought about making an online shop and selling home-made ice cream in our neighborhood. She keeps on asking me for every 5 seconds and I lost it. I forgot what I wanted to write about so I backspaced all the way and started writing this one. Distractions. It's something that clouds our thoughts and most probably, make us feel annoyed. Imagine having your "beauty sleep" then a bus will just honk his horn, it makes you want to throw a grenade on that bus, right? (No hard feelings) But we can't help it. We all need peace of mind whenever we do something important, and mostly, when the deadline's near. Whenever we have a crappy work, we could just say that there were distractions while we were working on that project, yes, distraction is one thing but sometimes, the only one distracting us is ourselves. We keep on thinking that we're too late and w...

XD So I made this page for you guys. Just click on those words that says "Your Corner" just at the top of the page and read about it so you'll know how it works. That is all. C: But if you're too lazy to move your cursor for a few centimeters then just  click HERE  because I know it would be easier for you guys and I know the hardships of being lazy. I feel ya.

Someone went to me and asked "Why am I not sweet, unlike you? Do you have all the 'sweet-genes' or something?". It took me a moment to comprehend what she just said and I told her "It's not in the genes. It depends on how you want people to feel and how sensitive you are to other's feelings." Then I added "Pride, my dear." And then she told me that she threw a certain letter that someone gave her a year ago because she thought it was "too sweet" and too "corny" and after that, I gave her a speech. Our conversation went like this: Me: WHAT?! Why would you throw something like that? He wrote that letter with all his might regarding that he will probably get humiliated because of that and yet he still chose to write a love letter to you. Have a sense of gratitude. Just keeping that letter is a huge deal for him already and that means so much but you'll just throw it away??? Her: I kept it for a year... Me: And s...

Yesterday, I took the aptitude exam and had an interview in the college I am planning to attend to. Everything went smoothly and fast while I was there. On my way home, I got all these questions  stuck in my head: (BA Journalism is the course I took by the way) What if I messed up? What if I wouldn't pass? What if they think I'm not good enough? What if I couldn't make the cut? Those questions had been in my head since yesterday and I am feeling so bad. I want to cheer myself up but I can't. I hate this feeling. Am I over-thinking? With those negative thoughts that I have, I decided to write here. We were told to return there on the 8th day of May, my father's birthday, and that just adds up to the problem. Two important events in one day. My life is so messed up right now. I want to distract myself from those thoughts but what else am I supposed to do this summer? I can write here everyday, yes, but that wouldn't distract me before May 8 comes. And t...

"You have to work hard to achieve your goal." The most cliche line that people would say to motivate you. But honestly, the only one that can motivate you is yourself...Well unless you're at school and there's a certain activity where you look at your best friend and say "I'll join if you join." Agree? I started with this article without a title because i gotta be honest with you guys...I am in a conflict with myself about what to write about next, so I really need your help. Be open, tell me what you want me to write about and I'll try my best to write about it. You can ask me for help and I will rack my brain just to find the perfect advice for you because I wanna be someone who you can lean on and someone that you're not afraid to tell all your problems to I want to be that someone that you can actually call a friend because in my past, I needed someone that I could lean on because I was alone and I don't want anybody to experience tha...