Living Inside My Head

(c) Tumblr I sometimes wish that every time we get hurt emotionally, bruises will just start appearing. it’s far better than getting something sharp and cut ourselves. Just plain bruises for every stress, anxiety, and hopelessness. Hiding how hurt we are every single day can be really tiring too, and I wouldn't wish for this if people would actually dig deeper and ask us if we’re really okay. Some would wait until they see the cuts we made before they ask what’s wrong.

I pretty much relate to this song so much. I have tried to prove to my family that I can manage things on my own (Distant yelling from society: "WELL TRY HARDER!") I have and I am still not giving up. I do not party nor drink at all. HONESTLY. Ask everyone that knows me...and yet there are people out there that don't trust me. People who have described me as someone who doesn't know anything. Someone who isn't responsible and doesn't have what it takes to survive alone. Well you know what? Here I am, almost finishing my first year in college and my limbs are still intact. Everyday, I would worry about what time should I be back without the landlord nagging me. My family is quite strict about my safety that is why I am scared to do...pretty much everything. Will they approve of this? Will they be okay with me doing this and that? They'll probably get mad at me for doing such. I shouldnt.. I wouldnt.. I pretty much COULDN'T. I am not compla

We all have different experiences, different lifestyles, different lives... and we may not know it, but sometimes, the only question we'd only wanna hear from people is: "How are you?" "I'm fine." "I'm good." "Everything's alright." "Nothing much really." "nm" "fine" SAME OLD. SAME OLD. Why can't I hear these answers? "My dog died...He was a gift from my dad and ... " "My favourite band's gonna have a concert near our place and my parents wouldnt mind me spectating!" "I got fired from my job ..." "I'm going to have a new cousin!" They sound better, don't they? It would be nice to know that someone actually listens. That someone actually cares. Not like: "Ahh.." (silence) "Aww, that's terrible!" (silence) "Good for you" (silence) "Good to hear" (silence) (silence) *laughs* (s