Living Inside My Head

"Never thought it could go any worse than that" During the first month of summer before my life as a high school student would start, my father used to hate everything I do...and by everything, I mean EVERYTHING. One time, I was writing on my journal, he scowled at me and said "What are you doing?! You're not even writing on your notebook during your days in elementary!" Then there's this other time when I drank fresh milk. He was like "Why are you drinking that?! You're not allowed to drink fresh milk at this time of day!" And of course, the basic thing that parents usually do: I was watching TV then he called me outside. He was with our family and they were talking. I went up to them and he started talking about all my failures in life and they all started laughing at me. I swear, at that time, I wanted to cut myself. I went to my room crying and searched for something sharp (can't use the knife, too big). I couldn't find ...

Remember that girl who bullied you yesterday? Or maybe that boy who teased awful things about you? Or those people who have let you down? What do you do to them? Do you bully them back or let them do what makes them happy, and that's hurting you? There's this line that says "Don't judge the book by its cover." We all know that it's about judgmental people. But come to think of it, are there people who don't judge?  I have read, seen, and heard about people's lives. About how cruel people to them are and how they just constantly tear them apart. But then again, we can't escape the fact that people like them exist, there will always be someone who will rain on your parade. But how did these kind of people exist? Let's go back to the girl who bullied you. Did you notice her scratches? How bout her bruises? No? How do you think is she treated at home?  Have you heard someone cry in your school's comfort room lately? THAT WAS HER. ...

Best Friend Problem. The most common line that people would tell me is "You're so kind" and I sometimes wonder why. Then I realized I have met all kinds of people: People who are mean to others because they have been bullied, people who are kind because they have been through a lot, people who looked kind but are actually mean, and people who looked mean but they are actually kind. Which one are you? FOr me, I don't know. Last week, I had a serious fight with my best friend because of a boy. She got mad at me because her crush and I were texting. Of course I wondered why she had to risk our friendship over a boy and I am no interested with the boy AT ALL. She threw bad words about me and I didn't care. She ignored me for the whole week and I didn't care. She doesn't want to forgive me but I didn't care. But actually, I LOOKED like I didn't care. Every time I went home that week, I would cry in my room. I didn't feel any hatred on her becaus...

So, this is my very own first blog about myself and everything that's happening in my life. I actually have Tumblr but it's mostly about Maroon 5. Yes, I am a proud Marooner <3 Well first of all, this blog was made out of pure...hmmm...what's the correct term...? I guess "boredom" is enough. Yes, this blog was made out of pure boredom, but there's willingness  in the corner. I just thought that since I'm always online, why not make my very own journal online as well? Honestly, when  I get home, I keep on telling myself "I should probably write on my journal now...but then again, nah, maybe tomorrow" then go online and surf the net. Been doing that for a few months now and gladly, my laziness disappeared and made this. And also, I thought that since I'm beginning college, why not make a blog of my write-ups, right? I always loved making poems and stories and I hope that people like you might like the things that I write. It's wei...