Living Inside My Head

Feeling like giving up? Like the world is pushing you down? And having experienced being alone in a corner and you just suddenly cry? I know we've all been through this. We have pasts that we badly want to forget but there's always something that keeps us being reminded of it. This can't be helped. We can escape from the past but is doesn't mean we can never remember it.  Some people run from the tragic past, even I do. How do we run from it exactly? We patch it all up with something positive until it can't be noticed. I know we all do that. But all things that were just patched up has the possibility of a leakage, and that is the sad truth. I believe everyone needs something to spill all their feelings out on. And this is how I spill all my feelings, by writing on this blog (it's 1:30 in the morning and I don't care because this is my sanctuary). This has been a pretty tough day for me and I know I'm not the only one. I had been in a verge of...

"Hurry up" "You gotta finish that already" "Aren't you done yet?" "What's taking so long?" Rushing people might be easy for you to do but you being the one being rushed doesn't feel great, does it? Once you rush people,it causes them to stress over the things they are doing, thus, leaving them to mess things up. Imagine following a dotted line with a marker and you gotta be careful but someone wants you to do it faster, will you mess up or not? Or imagine going to the grocery with a list your mom gave you but you only had 15 minutes to do it, will you get the exact groceries needed? I think not. If we rush them, then it wouldn't be good for them, would it? It will most likely lead them to thinking that they'll just stop on whatever they're doing and go to you even though the work's not finished, or worse, go to you with their work completely messed up. You can't escape this, you're not rushing them to su...

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Let me tell you a short story about a girl who had been in a fight with herself. Choosing between her friends since it's the last time they'll be together and it's her best friend's birthday, or her family who didn't approve of the location they were going to. In the end, she went with her friends anyway because she trusts them They enjoyed themselves and laughters were shared but despite all that, the girl was still a bit worried about what awaits her when she arrives home. After a while, it was time for them to go home from the cold spring. While on her ride home, she was bracing herself for the unlimited nagging of her family but...after a while, a smile flashed across her face. Why? Because she knew it will all be worth it. She had the best time of her life and she knew she made the right decision. She was just over-thinking. She went home and no one nagged her at all because she sticked to her promise that they will go home early. And that's no proble...

April 4, 2014, the day when we finally graduated. It seems like it was only yesterday when we first stepped into our classroom. Days do go by fast, huh? While our graduation song was playing in the background, almost all of us couldn't sing because we were already crying. Parents and guardians were in front of us and after singing our song, we gave them roses and that's when all of us broke into crying. To be honest, I have seen the most beautiful moment I could have seen in my entire life. Everyone was smiling with tears in their eyes and everyone was hugging one another. Even our teachers were teary-eyed. We all said our thanks and apologized to the ones that we've hurt. Our past teachers came, too. Nothing could have been better than that. Today I woke up and realized that I can never study to our school ever again. I won't see the same faces that I have seen everyday in that school. And that school's name is Conperey. Then I also realized that I won't s...

There's no denying it, us teens will always lose in a fight with our parents or family members. They mostly nag about things that aren't true... but if we talk back? They'll call it disrespect ... but if we don't talk back, then they won't be corrected, thus, making our reputation worse. In the end, we'll end up not talking because it's the right thing to do . Because it is, we should always do the right thing. I am not saying that we should talk back but sometimes, we just need to voice out what we really think, what we really feel. They tell you that you should be open to them but it turns out you can't. They are older than you and they are always right. That's one thing that they want you to know. Then they mostly have very high expectations from us... You've done your best but your best isn't enough for them... Then they'll compare you with someone else. Then you'll end up feeling like a failure. You k...

Everywhere I go, I can hear about people being insecure and don't love themselves enough... "I'm not skinny enough." "I wish I have a body like hers." "I'm too fat." "I'm so ugly." "Being ugly must be my talent." Those are just some common lines that are being said by most people. Reason? People are too judgmental. "Ugh. Look at her. Does she even belong here?" "Ew. What are you wearing?" "HAHAHA! You're so fat!" I recall waiting for my food in the mall then this group of girls were standing behind me then I heard one of them say "Let's go judge people" and you know what, they are really really really lucky that there are a lot of people in the mall or else I would have given them a lecture. I can never forget that moment because the feeling I had that time was unexplainable. But come to think of it, being judged cannot be escaped. It's already in the hu...