Living Inside My Head

April 4, 2014, the day when we finally graduated. It seems like it was only yesterday when we first stepped into our classroom. Days do go by fast, huh? While our graduation song was playing in the background, almost all of us couldn't sing because we were already crying. Parents and guardians were in front of us and after singing our song, we gave them roses and that's when all of us broke into crying. To be honest, I have seen the most beautiful moment I could have seen in my entire life. Everyone was smiling with tears in their eyes and everyone was hugging one another. Even our teachers were teary-eyed. We all said our thanks and apologized to the ones that we've hurt. Our past teachers came, too. Nothing could have been better than that. Today I woke up and realized that I can never study to our school ever again. I won't see the same faces that I have seen everyday in that school. And that school's name is Conperey. Then I also realized that I won't s...

There's no denying it, us teens will always lose in a fight with our parents or family members. They mostly nag about things that aren't true... but if we talk back? They'll call it disrespect ... but if we don't talk back, then they won't be corrected, thus, making our reputation worse. In the end, we'll end up not talking because it's the right thing to do . Because it is, we should always do the right thing. I am not saying that we should talk back but sometimes, we just need to voice out what we really think, what we really feel. They tell you that you should be open to them but it turns out you can't. They are older than you and they are always right. That's one thing that they want you to know. Then they mostly have very high expectations from us... You've done your best but your best isn't enough for them... Then they'll compare you with someone else. Then you'll end up feeling like a failure. You k...

Everywhere I go, I can hear about people being insecure and don't love themselves enough... "I'm not skinny enough." "I wish I have a body like hers." "I'm too fat." "I'm so ugly." "Being ugly must be my talent." Those are just some common lines that are being said by most people. Reason? People are too judgmental. "Ugh. Look at her. Does she even belong here?" "Ew. What are you wearing?" "HAHAHA! You're so fat!" I recall waiting for my food in the mall then this group of girls were standing behind me then I heard one of them say "Let's go judge people" and you know what, they are really really really lucky that there are a lot of people in the mall or else I would have given them a lecture. I can never forget that moment because the feeling I had that time was unexplainable. But come to think of it, being judged cannot be escaped. It's already in the hu...

We can’t deny that we’ve all been through this rough decision. You wanna go home but your friends want you to stay? You wanna buy your favorite shoes but your mom insists that the shoes she picked was better? You wanna be a teacher but your parents wants you to be an engineer? Those are just some of the hard decisions to think over. Whether you’ll go for what you want but the other side gets disappointed or you follow the wants of others and you just have to bear with it.  But to think of it, sometimes you have to fight for yourself. I mean, yes, you want to make them happy, but what about you? Are you gonna be happy? Yes, sometimes you have to think about others before yourself but it doesn't mean you have to do it all the time...because sometimes, people can abuse you for that. Would you want that? Definitely not. But then the thought that you're risking something over your happiness might come into mind. Take for example, your friendship. Yes, they ...

I know most of us have thought about this act. Suicide. What makes us think about this?  Yes. Problems, problems, problems. We all think that dying is the gateway to solving whatever life throws at us. No existence, no problem! NO more bullying, no more stress. You're free! But... What do we gain from being dead? We'll have nothing to do but look at all these people breathing, talking, eating, running, walking, LIVING. Doing all the things that you can do no more.  I don't know what it feels like to be dead (because I still get to post these stuffs) but look at it this way... You're dead. You're a ghost. You see your family weeping over you because you killed yourself. You wanted to hug them and tell them that you're gonna be okay, but you cant, and you're not even close to being okay. You look to your left and you see your classmates, friends, and teachers whom you thought will never go to your funeral, but you see them th...

I know all of you experienced this. We all get stressed out because of our parents sometimes, we can't change that. Do this!  Do that!  Buy this!  Clean that!  You missed a spot!  Clean your room!  Clean up the kitchen!  Go to school!  Do your homework! These are just some common lines that our mom usually shouts. But the last time I heard my mom shout was 5 years ago... My mom's name's Ellyn. She's probably the kindest person you would have met. She was my teacher, my best friend, and my mom of course...The best mom in the world. When she died, every time I do nothing but sit and think, there will always be flashbacks. Flashbacks where I would ignore her while she was trying to comfort me and ask me what was wrong; Flashbacks where I saw her call out to me from the kitchen but I ignored her because she made me do the laundry; And I never realized how sad she was when I did... I never noticed how her beautiful smile disappeared...

We have all been through our rough times, no one can escape the cruelty of life. And that's a fact. Thinking that your life is the worst of all? Think again. I, for one, thought that I have the worst life in the history of human kind. Thinking that my parents are now gone, I can't imagine that I can't see them ever while I'm still here on earth, alive. But then I thought, I am not the only one who doesn't have parents... Every time I watch TV, or walk along the streets, I see homeless children who depends on each other and strive to live. Life didn't hit me that hard. In classrooms, I hear everyone laughing and teasing the fattest one in class but little do they know that that fat girl they always tease cries every time she goes home and skips all of her meals just to get thinner. She's living because of water and her parents are worried. She's unhealthy not just physically, but emotionally, too. My life didn't hit me that hard. Some ...