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Kindness?

Best Friend Problem.

The most common line that people would tell me is "You're so kind" and I sometimes wonder why. Then I realized I have met all kinds of people: People who are mean to others because they have been bullied, people who are kind because they have been through a lot, people who looked kind but are actually mean, and people who looked mean but they are actually kind. Which one are you? FOr me, I don't know.

Last week, I had a serious fight with my best friend because of a boy. She got mad at me because her crush and I were texting. Of course I wondered why she had to risk our friendship over a boy and I am no interested with the boy AT ALL. She threw bad words about me and I didn't care. She ignored me for the whole week and I didn't care. She doesn't want to forgive me but I didn't care. But actually, I LOOKED like I didn't care. Every time I went home that week, I would cry in my room. I didn't feel any hatred on her because I have already forgiven her. I would talk to my online friends and they would say "You're too kind." and maybe I am but there's nothing wrong with that, right?
Am I weird for forgiving people easily? Is it weird that even though she hates my existence, I don't wanna see her hurt? Maybe...or maybe not.

"Everytime you throw bricks at me... I always forget the pain and forgive you... Then I tell myself  to give you more chances...But I don't know how many more chances because no matter how many times you stab me with a knife, I will always end up forgiving you."I sent that as a group message and another one of my best friends comforted me and that made me realize that I am not alone. The next day, before we went home, I went up to our school's rooftop and  listened to Simple Plan's song "Astronaut" because I can really relate to that song. (Try listening to it if you haven't heard it. It's an old song though)

Can anybody hear me? Or am I talking to myself. My mind is running empty, in a search for someone else who doesn'tlook right through me. It's all just static in my head.Can anybody tell me why I'm lonely like a satellite? 

 "Lycs?" I heard my best friend call out for me.
"Yeah?" then I answered.

I knew in that moment that someone wants to talk to me and that someone is my best friend who has been ignoring me for a week. I went down and then my prediction was right. Our best friend gave us time to talk and then we did. She started apologizing and stating her reason. She also told me that she's over him. While she was talking, I had this silly green in my face because I got nothing in my head but the thought that my bestfriend that was once lost is finally back. And before I thought I'll never have her back, but I'm glad that she is.


So, how to regain friendship back?
Forget about pride, learn how to forgive. Yes, forgiving is really hard but sometimes you have to sacrifice for the better good.

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